Sunday, July 18, 2021

Here I am, Oh Allaah! Here I am...

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم



Labbayka Allaahumma Labbayk! Labbayka laa shareeka laka Labbayk!
Here I am, Oh Allaah! Here I am!
Very far from Your House, here I am!

I have never been to Your House, Oh Allaah, here I am! 
Every year the month of Dhul Hijjah is such an exam!
I see Your guests flocking to Your House, but here I am! 
Very far from the city of Makkah, here I am!

With tears in my eyes, and my heart full of gloom
I see the blessed souls perform Tawaaf al-Qudoom
I helplessly whisper to You in Sujood, here I am
Very far from the Mataaf al-Haraam, here I am!

My soul recalls the running of Haajar between Safa and Marwa
I see Your guests perform Saa'i with devotion in Mas'aa
Then they head towards Mina, while here I am
Very far from the City of Tents, here I am!

When the Day of Arafah dawns and the crowds gather
When they supplicate and weep for Your Forgiveness, O Pardoner! 
With tears of repentance, longing and desperation, here I am
Very far from that blessed gathering, here I am!

When Your guests spend the night in Muzdalifah, in supplications and Dhikr
When Mashar al-Haraam echoes with Laa ilaaha illallaah! ALLAAHU AKBAR!
Proclaiming Your Oneness, Oh Allaah, here I am
Very far from that glorious site, here I am!

At sunrise as Your guests hasten through Wadi Mahsar, to Mina
When they say "Allaahu Akbar!" while stoning the Jamaraah
I cannot stone the enemy, Oh Allaah, here I am
Very far from that symbolic stoning, here I am!

When Your guests return to Your House for Tawaaf and Saa'i
And they again return to Mina and stone the enemy
Those two nights complete their pilgrimage, Oh Allaah, here I am!
Very far from performing this ibaadah, here I am!

When Your guests bid farewell to Your House with Tawaaf al-Wadaa
When they are filled with sadness to depart after this great ibaadah
My heart prays that You invite me soon to Your House, here I am
Very far from Your House, Oh Allaah! Here I am!!!

~ UmmHashir 







Thursday, June 24, 2021

Meri Fathima, Tujhe Ali mile... :(

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم


Ek nanhi-si beti thi, jo hasti-khelti rehti thi
Bachpan ki galiyon me Papa ka haath thaam kar ghoomti thi
Maa ke aanchal se nikal kar, neend se bachne bhaagti thi
Papa ki goad me Nabiyon ke qisse sun kar soti thi

Papa ne samjhaaya usey ke wo beti hai Aadam Alayhis Salaam ki
Jaise hai har insaan is jahaan me, par mili hai usko nyamat Islaam ki
Kaha Nooh (ﷷﷵ) bhi ek baap the, magar beta unka gumraahi me doob gaya
Ibraheem (ﷷﷵ) ko sab ne aag me pheka, baap bhi unse rooth gaya

Kaha Papa ne nyamatein theen mili Bani Israeel ko man o salwa ki
Magar wo ita'at nahi karte the kabhi Allaah ke Nabi Moosa ki
Lekin Moosa (ﷷﷵ) ki saabit qadmi me saath dene mile Haroon unhe
Allaah ne Apne Nabi ko di fataah dushman Firaun pe

Dheere-dheere jaise badhi hone lagi, uski mohabbat apne ghar se badhne lagi
Un kahaaniyon me Papa ki awaaz ek naye rukh ki taraf badalne lagi
Papa ne kaha usko ke ek aurat ka muqaam badha azeem hai
Rabb ne banaaya usko maa banne ke liye, wo badha Kareem hai

Haajar ka qissa is baar sunaaya ek naye andaaz me
Ke shauhar ki ita'at me kaise hui tarbiyat Ismaeel (ﷷﷵ) ki Hijaaz me
Maryam ko jab ye azmat mili to is jahaan ko ek maujizah mila
Easa (ﷷﷵ)- ek waahid banda, AAJ BHI hai Allaah k paas zinda!

Wo jaan gayi, wo samajh gayi ke ye pyaar-dulaar sab chootne waala hai
Na jaane kaunse modh par kab, uska bachpan roothne waala hai...
Kaha ek din usne, "Papa ek cheez maang loon? Phir kabhi na sataungi UFF se
Ye Duniya to faani hai na? Meri shaadi Jannat me kardena Yusuf se."

Sunke baat uski Papa ke honth muskuraane lage, aankhein ashkon me chamakne lageen
Kaha papa ne, "Khoobsurat Yusuf  (ﷷﷵ) se zyaada hai Bilaal (رضي الله عنه) ka Eemaan haseen
Maine samjhaaya hai na tujhe baar-baar ke hum Ummati hain kiske?
Meri bachchi Shariat ki hifaazat me hi to is Duniya ko Jannati hain jeete!"

"Meri beti, mujhe pyaar hai tujhse - tu mere Rabb ki anmol nyamat hai
Lekin is pyaar ki asal wajah ye hai k mere liye tu ek bahut hi khoobsurat Sunnat hai
Yaad hai wo do ungliyon waali hadeeth? Muhammad-ur-Rasool Allaah (ﷺ) ki wo qurbat, meri har Dua hai
Hui Rabb ki Rahmat mujhpar ke Usne likhi aisi qismat, k tu MERI Fathima hai"

"Main ek gunaahgaar Momin hoon meri bachchi, magar Shariat se mujhko mohabbat hai
Main ek Muhammadi hoon, k har Sunnat se mujhko mohabbat hai
Tu jaanti hai ye baat achche se, k teri hasti hui Soorat se mujhko mohabbat hai
Magar teri aankhon me aansu bhi agar hon yahan, to teri Jannat se mujhko mohabbat hai."

Barson beet gaye ke ek din kaha papa ne, "Meri beti Rabb ne banaaya tera WALI mujhe
Maine maangi hai Duaayein Sajdon me ke isi Duniya me mile, Jannat ka saathi tujhe
Waqt aa chuka hai ab ke tujhe jald hi jaana hai mere ghar se, tujhe har khushi mile
Wo tujhe apna Nisf-Deen banaa lega, MERI FATHIMA - TUJHE YUSUF NAHI, TERA ALI MILE."

(Rabbir hamhumaa kamaa Rabbayaanee sagheera 😢🤲)

~ BintSamsam


 



Friday, June 18, 2021

...lonely togetherness

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم




When it hurts very deep you don't complain! Trust me. You simply walk away in silence. And, it is in these moments that you realise that Allaah has actually not planned for you a comforter in this Duniya. Perhaps, HE wants to be the only One comforting you. 

As a believer, let this reality not hurt you so much that it reflects in your behaviour towards others. Let not what hurt your feelings pass through your expressions to others. When you feel you are all alone and this Duniya only waves at you from afar and displays its continuation of the Journey - remind yourself that, you too are on a journey towards Aakhirah. Make Dua - tell Allaah you feel lonely and ask HIM to make this loneliness HERE, a means to be recompensed with a lonely togetherness in Jannah,  with nobody but HIM. 

When you feel very lonely, when you see that you have always been so - make a wish for a lonely meeting with Al-Wudood in the Gardens where rivers flow. To tell HIM that you waited and that you are now content. 

 إن شاء الله 

~UmmHashir 
I am nobody, but a stranger, only a simple wayfarer,
My journey is this life till I reach the Hereafter..
Traveling all along the footsteps of my Teacher
,
For I have to, in time, reach the destination promised by MY
SUSTAINER...